The Turn Around

It would appear that my schedule is booked for the next 10 years.  At least in the sense that I am homeschooling my child as well as playing the role of parent and husband secretary.  That is fine with me now (before it wasn't as I took forever getting used to my own idea) as my child and I have both gotten used to homeschool.

I talk about it with you now because August 1st is coming up and that is when we start back each year.  This is her "3rd grade" year if it had to be anything.  One must remember that she is behind in Math and actually in 2nd grade math, 4th grade science, 3rd grade grammar, etc.  You see, because we homeschool we can focus on her individual needs rather than as a classroom whole.  This way she is learning the material and review is often unneeded.  Miss G has a full schedule in our household because of her extracurriculars this year.  Piano, ballet, art class, chess all take up her time and she doesn't know it but her mother (me) is probably also going to be a Girl Scout Troop leader this year as well so we allow for her schedule to fit around her activities.  She is also learning from the master approach (bio one year, physics the next) rather than the spiral (a little fed each year hope ya don't forget). All of this at her level of learning.

We are excited too as the devoted hubby/amazing father of the year is setting up a room just for homeschooling as we get to decorate it in special ordered wall decals.  The kitty on the right as well as some other very cool Miss G type art.

Miss G's 2011-2012 Courses as written today:

Grammar                               Math
Writing                                  Social Science
Spelling                                 Art
Science/Health                    Music
Ancient & US History         Reading
World Geography               Latin

We are soooo excited!

While or When I am 30.

When I was a teen there was a teacher intern who was 30.  So many girls had a crush on him...and Brad Pitt (who was also 30).  Not me.  I thought it was stomach churning to have a crush on someone so old.  I was confused about it all and all that I did know was that when I was 30 that was when I would obviously have reached all of my goals in life.

15 years later....

My life has turned out so different than I thought it would.  I do not work for some major corporation making huge masses of money living in a sky-rise with a gorgeous view of an obstructed sunset.  Instead, I have a child who is just like me and knows it and of course desperately is trying to be herself (and doing a great job Miss Fabulous).  I have a husband who works his butt off to provide for us because he loves us so much and I live along the coast in a rural area that is probably one of the most beautiful places that I have ever lived.

I had all these hopes and dreams and wants and needs in my life and thought that for certain that by the old age of 30 I would have them all.  What I did not expect and am still living in, is a 30 in which God has decided to spend a year showing me that my life turned out wonderfully and blessed and no matter what has happened or who I have run into or anything else, I am okay. God did decide to take time out from His life and work a bit on me.  There is nothing wrong with me and whatever my dreams were it is okay that they changed over the years and I am going to come out the other side of 30 accomplishing much more than I ever hoped.  I know myself.

So, no matter what, my life is blessed and so am I and wish me luck because there is another 153 days to go for God to get through to me.  I love you guys.

Dear Diary,

I am an adult.

Signed,

Here is what I mean.  You have yours friends.  We all do however then you have those friends who absolutely will not under penalty of death, just swing on by without an invitation.  We all have those people who would annoy the whatever out of us if they did just show up.  But ya know, I wish, just wish that some of my friends who feel the freedom to say hello more often.  It would seem that a formal "how do you do" is in order for the lot of them.  It almost seems as if that is what adults are supposed to do.
I say this because not 5 years ago life was completely different in this aspect.  People felt okay with just swinging on by at dinner time or whenever it pleased them and there was no formal (or any kind of) verbal invite needed.  Now, maybe I'm old?  Maybe, when a person ages, their manners become an unwritten necessity?  Why should my friends feel the need for all of this stuff and nonsense?  Because I might be busy?
Here is an unwritten rule that I am making up as of right now:

If you and I hang out, goof off, crack each other up, and talked about "issues" in the same day, come on over unannounced.  I am never too busy to see your bright and shining bea-u-tiful face.  This also goes for if you have come over for a fish fry...ever.

Lots of love to you all and remember, keep smiling!

Opened Up a Can Of ....

I started seeing a counselor about a month ago.  Well, we started started seeing one.  She is an amazing Christian counselor who isn't offensive or out to send anybody off to get on meds.  So a whole can of worms was opened up when we started.  I knew things were bothering me and that I couldn't get past them, however I never expected  to feel tossed about and turned upside down all the while being able to think clearly for once.

Then it happens, a very good unnamed person says to me, "Hey, you there! You've been acting differently!" (This of course is not what was actually said but you get the point)  "No I haven't" I say but this person is insistent.  Okay people, when you go to talk to someone so that you can get an outside point of view, sometimes ya feel better!  Just better.  You learn that life isn't perfect and that you don't have to please people and then "voila!" happens.  In my special case, "viola" means that I can think straight and am able to handle stress.  No more panic attacks.  Yes, people, after one month, your favorite whatever-I-am-to-you is happy! Just imagine how I'll be after a whole year! Maybe even (wait foooorrrrr it) fine and dandy!

* disclaimer -happiness is not a bad thing and neither is feeling any emotion at all. thank you and have a good day!

The Confused Thoughts of This 30 Something Wife

So I have been reading my own blog and I have
realized that my blog falls under the severely boring category.  I write on it for a myriad of reasons (when I remember to) however the thoughts that I have put upon these pages have only been occasionally interesting.  So here is the plan....

1.  Getting my blog an actual theme.  This means a certain topic to write about.  In my case it could be about homeschool, book reviews, life by the beach, crafting, being a mom, being southern and all of it's eccentricities, or being the wife of a husband who works so much he is often not home until very late or working through to the next day. hmmmm...

2. Actually writing on the blog instead of forgetting about it.

3. Not editing my own blog and thoughts.  Write what I think and not be afraid to speak my mind. another hmmmm...goes here.

Finally, I could throw in the towel, write whatever ramblings are on my mind and leave it at that.

So what do you think?